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Matthew Gray's avatar

This is such a beautifully reflective piece which is tender, insightful, and deeply human. I love how it moves from the chaos of sirens and family chatter to the quiet grace of your mother’s presence. It’s a reminder that wisdom often sits silently in the corner, steady and luminous, showing us what really matters.

Now, about the bagel experience. For me, they must always be well-toasted. That, and there's never enough cream cheese. ♥

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Larry Urish's avatar

Nice overview of the crux of this essay, Matthew. Rick is a really wonderful writer.

As for "cream cheese": a true aficionado calls that "schmeer." And let's not forget the lox! (I have a Jewish background, which supposedly makes me an expert...)

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Rick Lewis's avatar

A Jewish background, eh? Is that one of the options on Zoom?

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Larry Urish's avatar

Yes indeedy!

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Matthew Gray's avatar

Yes, I too am a member of the Tribe. Bagels don’t exist in a world without Nova/lox, schmear, capers, sweet onion, etc.

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Rick Lewis's avatar

Very kind of you Matthew. Thank you. I've always been of the same ilk re toasting, until I found the real deal Bagelry here in town. First time I've been able to have a fresh untoasted bagel and actually prefer it that way. Especially cinnamon raisin. Oh boy.

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Matthew Gray's avatar

* Oh dear, cinnamon & raisin? Those bagels have identity issues.

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Rick Lewis's avatar

Ya, well, me too.

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Bob Gilbreath's avatar

Ahh, thank you for a wonderful mental movie of your family together. In similar situations I increasingly find myself floating up in the room to just treasure the whole song and dance we are in together in this life.

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Rick Lewis's avatar

That sounds amazing Bob. I wish I were that buoyant! Thanks for taking in my scene. How many people show up to your family gatherings? And more importantly, what bagels fixings are on the table?

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Amba Gale's avatar

Once again, your Presence enters my day like an unexpected snowball, bringing me back to a life of presence, a life of now. My favorite sentence? Of course: "It’s the listeners who sometimes remind us that having no opinion is the greatest gift we can bring to a conversation." It speaks so loudly in its own Silence, I won't even expound upon it.

Thank you so much for this piece-- for all of it, for the bringing me back to my own culture. Me? I know you didn't ask, but I prefer onion bagels the best, thank you.

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Rick Lewis's avatar

ha ha, thank you Amba and I am making note of your order. Would you like cream cheese with that?

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Matt Cyr's avatar

Well done, Rick. Can be a tricky balance on how to best spend time with older parents, esp when they don’t want to be reminded of it. They just want to be with their family, during normal time. And the holidays are normal and Sunday meals are normal… until they’re not. And then part of you regrets spending a moment on robot umpires… but you remember that’s all part of normal time.

It’s a blessing your mom’s dementia is not progressing too rapidly, gives her and the family time together. It’s cliche for a reason, enjoy the time today. Thanks for writing about this.

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Rick Lewis's avatar

That's a mantra I could do well to adopt Matt, "it's all part of normal time," indeed. I remember listening to a lecture years ago by James Hillman unpacking the myth of normal in the minds of western culture. Norman Rockwell had his genius, but he also trapped the expectations of many in a fantasy scene that we expected we ought to have.

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Larry Urish's avatar

You so masterfully distinguish between the chaos of differing opinions – the blaring sirens approaching from all directions – and the calm, wise equanimity of your mother. As she trusts those in your family to pick up the cognitive pieces that get left behind, anyone paying attention will also trust that, when the time comes, you'll be the one sitting in that blue chair, watching, waiting, staying in the present moment ...

And, at least for now, it's okay to dive into a nice debate, even as the volume escalates.

Well done, as always!

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Rick Lewis's avatar

Yes, still learning to appreciate the debate. Thanks Larry.

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